Can you believe it? I lost 1.7 kg last week! Damn. 31.5 kilos gone forever, that’s 69lb for your non metric people. Damn. I was looking at the dairy section at Woolies the other day, and realised that I was somehow lugging round the equivalent of 60 tubs of margarine. It’s an old trick but a good one – getting a visual picture of how much you’ve lost.
I never, ever thought 5 and a half months ago that I’d be here. 5 and a half months ago it was summer, I was so big I couldn’t find a comfortable position to sleep in, and I was so wheezy I’d wake myself up with the sound of my shaky breathing. I couldn’t reach my shoes properly to tie the laces. I couldn’t walk around the block without being totally and completely exhausted. Making the bed in the mornings left me puffed. I ate McDonalds about 3 times a week. I’d eat a family block of chocolate in one sitting. My size 26 clothes were way too tight. I had about 27 chins!
Now I sleep just fine and I’m discovering bits of me I never thought existed. My spare tyres are slowly slowly shrinking. Beneath the fat I can feel muscles forming, in my calves, my thighs, my stomach, even my dreaded upper arms, they’re there and they’re hard and by the time I blast off this fat, give me a year or so… the body underneath will be pretty nice.
Now I’m comfortably in a size 24, flirting with a 22 (the 24 jeans are getting too big now!), my shoes feel bigger, my socks stay up now, my bra size has dropped from 26D to a almost too big now 24C.
Now I can look in the mirror and not cry
Now I go to the gym 3-4 times a week for 45-50 mins, I go on the cross trainer, the treadmill, the bike, the rowing machine. I look forward to my workouts. I never, ever thought I’d say that about exercise. If you’ve been reading from the start you may remember that it took me a good couple of months to get into exercise, it was just so difficult at first, hauling that bulk around. Isn’t it just amazing how you can transform yourself, if you persist? If anyone’s reading who thinks they’re too big to exercise, just walk to the end of your driveway and back a few times! Do it again and again and again and before you know it you’ll be going further and further than before and you may even find yourself *gasp* enjoying it!
I saw a friend of mine on Tuesday that I hadn’t seen for three months. She kept hugging and grinning and telling me she "barely recognised" me when I got out of my car. She also said my face looked "heaps skinnier!". I told her not to humour me, because I don’t feel like I look much different. But she reminded me that she hadn’t seen me since March and insisted I look dramatically different.
Please don’t think I am bragging here, it’s more of a reminder for me. If you read the last entry you’ll notice I very VERY easily lose sight of my progress. Writing it down and reading it back to myself makes me stop and think, crikey! You HAVE come a long way! Sure I still have a looooooooong way to go but there’s no reason why I can’t stop and have a hip hip hooray! I’m only a third of the way there… I wonder how good I’ll feel when i get to my goal?
Speaking of losing sight, your emails and gb entries have made SUCH an amazing difference to me, always coming at the right time to put me into respective. I’ve been busy again and bloody AWFUL in terms of replying to emails, I’m so sorry! I will catch up on the weekend for sure.
But for now, I’m off to bed. I’m spent!