What a difference 24 hours makes! I finally have some news, groovers. He proposed this morning! I said yes!
Can you believe it? I’m going to marry Bagpipes, as Airlie called him. Are you excited? I’M EXCITED. I wanted this so badly, it felt so right. The turning point for me was during SC’s Rawk Concert when I looked up at him and swooned and knew I never wanted to be with anyone else. But I never really told anyone that marriage was my desired outcome – as opposed to deportation or a work permit – coz I am always afraid if I say things out loud they will never happen!
Anyway, I am saying it now. Woohoo! It took SC a few more months to realise that was what he wanted too, and I have to tell you I have never been so happy in my entire life. Proposing to someone in bed at 2.02 AM is a little different, but to me it is perfect and I will never, ever forget it. The tone of his voice and the happiness when I said yes and the way my whole life just seemed to fall into place. I was so stunned and shocked and kept saying, "I’m so stunned and shocked!". He said to me so sweetly, "Well that’s what you get for being so nice to someone. For letting someone just be who they are and encouraging them and loving them. And for being a chick who likes MotoGP."
My eloquent response? "I’m so excited I could SPEW!"
Let’s get back to the fat for a moment. You may have guess what I’m going to say. That I am slightly annoyed with myself for not busting some lard last year and eating like a pork over Christmas, as I will be a rather dumpy bride on a budget. Not that we have made any plans yet, but I ain’t going to be looking my best! I have 11 weeks til my visa ends, so we’ll be getting hitched sometime before then – not much time for a miracle!
But you can’t turn back the clock, and as I said the other day, I don’t begrudge 2004 and all the fun I had instead of focusing on my weight. I never thought I would feel so relaxed about the whole thing, but I am just so happy that SC and I are going to stay together that the other issues pale into insignificance. I am sure I will scrub up reasonably well, somehow 🙂