Sometimes you people make me cry with your kindness. After all these years you still leave beautiful comments and say nice things in emails and it just motivates me every single time. Thank you so very very much. Where would we be without the electric internet to find all these kindred tubby souls? I know my journey wouldn’t have been half as fun without you.
As I said in the last few entries, I’ve been losing and gaining the same few kilos for months now. I weighed myself at the gym on Monday, the first time I’d done so in 5 weeks – I was up to 91.7 kilos (202lb), a gain of 1.2 kilos (2.7lb). Och well. At least I know the damage now. I am just so irritated with myself for wasting so much time with this fluctuating weight. My jeans go tight normal loose tight. My Enell sports bra gets too tight, I lose a few kilos and it’s fine again, then I put them right back on and I’m squeezed in again. My mood goes blah euphoric blah. This pendulum thing is just frustrating.
I’m shooting for consistent behaviour, good habits and no extremes. My sister and I have five weeks before we head off on a three week Russia/Scandinavia tour that is pretty much the entire reason we have been working our insane 6-7 day weeks. It’s the main thing we wanted to do while living in the UK. I’d wanted to be close to my goal by then, but alas, it hasn’t happened. Instead my goal is just to get my eating habits in order by then, coz I know there’ll be lots of dodgy food on the tour.
My sis and I are determined to help each other out, she’s got a few unwanted kilos and wants to get back to her WW goal she reached way back in 2001. So we thought back to that year and what made it so successful for us both. It was really just small, consistent changes. These days, while our lunchtime salads are great, our evening meals tend to have too-big portions. So we’re going for lighter, more summery salady meals for the next five weeks before our trip so we can re-train our stomachs not to expect such hefty amounts of food.
Um, the above was actually written last week. I forgot to post it! I am pleased to report that the week went very well and I lost 1.6 kilos (3.2lb). Some of that might be lost muscle – I haven’t been to my Body Pump class in over a month. Even so, it was a good week.
Instead of my usual extreme behaviour – NO CHOCOLATE! – my sister and I decided to buy one 100g block of Green & Blacks Chocolate when we get our shopping on Tuesday night and share it. That’s only 50g of chocolate per week and a decent treat. Before we’d get one each which would lead to guilt and/or further indulgence.