Wednesday Weigh-In – Week 2

So I haven’t written since last week’s weigh day, I offer no excuse except for me being a lazy, frazzled bastard with a very lengthy list of things to do with an apparent inability to finish bloody any of them.

Anyway, here goes.

last update: 26 January 2005

age: 27
height: 173cm (5’8")

original start weight: 159.2 kg (351lb) on 17 Jan 2001
original start bmi: 53.4

fresh start weight: 95.9 kg (211.4 lb) on 12 Jan 2005
fresh start bmi: 32.2

current weight: 92.4 kg (203.3lb)
current bmi: 31

result this week: –0.7 kg (1.5lb)

loss in 2005: -3.5 kg (7.7lb)
total loss since 2001: –66.8 kg (147lb)

initial goal weight: 75 kg (165lb)
distance to goal: 17.4 kg  (38.3lb)

I’m quite happy with that result, I knew that last week’s big loss was what I call Honeymoon Kilos. It’s quite easy to drop a couple in a week when you ate and drank like a porker for the weeks before that. Now the hard work has begun!

This week’s aim was to get back exercising.

I’m going through this phase lately where I am reading Diet Books. None of the sensational ones like The Glass of Air Diet or Fart Yourself Thin, just sensible tomes like Outwit Your Weight and Dr Phil’s Ultimate Weight Solution. I don’t know what the freaking hell I expected to find from these books, but lately I’ve had this crisis of confidence where I think I don’t know what’s best for me, that I don’t have the smarts to shift the rest of my lard. I poured over these books expecting some great enlightenment. I took all the stupid quizzes and noted what they wanted me to eat, and it hit me – I already know all this crap. There was nothing they were telling me, no diet tip or exercise or food combination or mind trick that I hadn’t already figured out for myself over the past four years.

What I’m trying to say is, I’m past the stage where I needed my hand held. I now know what to do, I have the tools. I know what exercise gets my metabolism ticking and what foods make me feel good. I just have to trust my own judgement again and take responsibility.

Most of all I have to retrain my thinking and realise I’m longer a beginner. I need to look in the mirror and see Almost There instead of Obese Beyond Belief. After all this time, I still think I go to the gym and see myself as The Really Fat Chick just puffing along in the classes with the beautiful people, and for me just to be there is some sort of miracle. Doing two or three classes and a bit of walking may have been an incredible odyssey when I was 120 kilos but now it is just not enough.

I’d booked in for Body Combat this afternoon, I only did it a few times last year because I became addicted to dancing my arse off at Body Jam. But I remembered how good BC is for cardio, so I decided to take it up again. But when I got off the bus I walked straight past the gym, went home and flopped on the bed. Why? Because the class was taken by Scary Richard who is like a drill sargeant. Because all the blonde whisps go to that class. Because I did Body Jam last night. Because I have wedding stuff to plan, boxes to pack. Because I am a lazy butt.

Twenty minutes before the class was due to start, I decided to put my gym clothes on and see if that would change my mind. Soon I remembered how much I used to love Combat, all that kicking and punching. And even though you’re only fighting air, it would have to help get my shoulders all mobile again ready for SC’s kickboxing class later this year. Plus last night’s Jam class was so focused on learning new steps I didn’t really get too sweaty.

So I ended up going and freaking loved it. Why do I always quit Combat? It hammers me like no other class and it’s so much fun. My shoulders are still singing and my legs are too.

It’s so humbling and bloody annoying to realise that I am not going to find some miracle inspiration in a book, some diet secret on the back of a cornflakes box. I just have to swallow what I knew all along, that I’m the only one who can do this and I’m going to have to get off my arse and move it.

25 thoughts on “Wednesday Weigh-In – Week 2

  1. I have just one thing to say to everything you just wrote. AMEN SISTER!!! So I lied have more to say…you are so right about that and how many of us pick up the latest diet book or latest fitness magazine hoping that there’s some magical formula we didn’t know about that’s going to give us instant results and have us down like 40 lbs. in a week or something like that. We have the power inside of us and we have to choose to use that power and it’s not necessarily will power, it’s the power to say unless you start moving your butt and eating better things you will never see the results you want. You think lowering your calories by a few and sitting at a desk is some how the magic formula? You know its not so only we can drive ourselves, only we can get up off of that couch and move and sweat and get toned. Only we possess that power.

  2. Great you had another loss. Your entry is the same as the realisation we all come to that there is no “magic bullet” to help us to goal. The best way is to track and excercise! As you say, you know what to do and better still – YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!

  3. Great entry. It is so true. I know for me exercise is the key. When I thought I couldn’t lose any more weight I took exercise to the next level. I really committed to working out and I lost weight. Eating healthy always is easier when working out. Keep up the great work!

  4. What no miracle diet? No amazing new food combination that melts off the pounds? It is just diet and exercise- that same old schlock? Say ain’t so!

    Way to go Diet Girl! You have the power. It belongs to you. To the beautiful girl engaged to be married. You are not working your way out of misery. You are working your way into honeymoon clothes.

  5. I know what you mean oh so well. I am even thinking of getting a pair of boots less and a couple of shirts too and devote 150 euros to the “new” flex points (just arrived here) program in WW for a subscription till May 19 after I return from Amsterdam. My detox days are ending soon and I am wondering how I will go from eating like a pig during the holidays and eating like a bird during the detox to eating like a normal person who wants to shed the rest of the fat.

    I have always admired you for not needing the weigh in lady weekly to keep you on track.

  6. I have been going through a similar phase, looking at as many diets as I can over the past year. The South Beach, Atkins, Dr Phil’s and all the possible magazine articles I can find on some celeb who has lost weight and how they have done it. The common thread is exactly what you have pinpointed. I know what the hell I have to do to lose weight. I have to expend more energy than I intake. Therefore I have to move my arse more and eat less and more healthy. Not exactly rocket science is it?? Then why the hell don’t I write a book on it and make millions while other fatty no hopers read it and never do anything about it? Maybe I will!!

  7. Hey, why don’t you write your own diet book? – call it something like For God’s Sake Just Move Your Arse. I’d buy it. (Seriously though, I think there’s be a market for a realistic, funny I’ve-been-through-this diet book. Can I have five per cent of the royalties for suggesting it?)

  8. I read books like that too and not to find a miracle sulution but to find inspiration. To read about tht it is possible and that one can do it etc.

    I go to boxing classes too but we acually box on people even if it is at the gym so you have gloves and hit others holding mits. It is so much fun and so tiering. Understand why you love it. but Im not much of a screamer either *s*

    keep it up girl *s*

  9. I so know what you mean about searching books. I do it all the time only to then realise that I know it all. It isn’t happening for me because I am not doing what I am meant to – simple really, hey??

  10. eat less, move more! it ain’t rocket science is it? but we fall in that trap. I don;t know about you, but i kid myself and say that it is not working and that something else might, but all the while I am striving to find a diet that “works” for me, I am secretly eating shit! I need to use the time I use reading crap that I already know to use work out some more! Thanx. Your enrty just hit home!

  11. I didn’t know what’s up pussycat existed until last week… so I thought Dietgirl had become an -ex blog recently.

    Anyway, congrats on the engagement, and welcome back to weight loss. My weight loss this year to date -6lbs.

    I don’t know what kind of wedding dress you’re after but Debenhams have ones you can try on in proper sizes, and feel like a princess, whereas the wedding dress shops made me feel like an idiot in a size 12 with pinned straps 8 inches across the back, and “robot arms” in a too tight dress.

  12. “For Gods Sake Just Move Your Arse!”

    HAH! That made my morning. Along with seeing that you go through the same battle of will-I won’t-I with exercise. Just last night I convinced myself I’d just drive PAST the gym and look for parking, then I found a spot, and I decided I’d just go SEE if there were spaces left for yoga. Even up to the point the class started I was sitting there listening to the inane chattering of all the college students thinking “this is going to SUCK, these people are all way to noisy to shut up for a yoga class!”

    Then of course the class started and I got to focus on my body, and stretching and balancing (and not falling on my arse in the middle of a Reverse Triangle Pose).

  13. Such a pest that there’s no magic solution and we won’t wake up tomorrow skinny and trim unless we move it today! But such a blessing there are people like you who tell it like it is in a funny inspiring way – helps us all keep at it until we get there.
    Kim put it SO well, BTW, You are not working your way out of misery. You are working your way into honeymoon clothes! Yay!

  14. Ahhh, the cold hard truth. We all wish there was a magic weight loss fairy, because, let’s face it, this is bloody hard work. And we don’t want to hear that. But that’s the truth and that’s what we have to do. Bloody hard work.

    I’m up for it. Sounds like you are too!

  15. Hey well done on another loss. I’m glad to hear that you like Body Combat, I’ve been wondering what it’s like and not game to try it. I think I’ll have to give it a go now. See, not only are you motivating yourself to move your own arse, you’ve just inspired someone else to do it as well. Now do you see why I love you? heh.

  16. I love Body Combat too. And our class is taught by Fitness First’s Insturcutor of the Year 2004. Chris is fab. He has such a hot body and pushes us all hard but has fun with it. I do it twice a week and the new 2005 routine is great. My abs and hamstrings have really felt the new moves.

    Last night I had the same dilemma though because I felt really tired and my allergies had started up as I left work so I had nose and eyes itchy and running most of the way home on the train. I so nearly got on the bus instead of going into the gym. But I went in and got changed and had a coffee before the class (one of the instructors has said caffeine before a workout can help you work harder and I needed some energy) and while I was in there Chris came up to me and said he was impressed with the progress I’d made. I was pretty rapt at that. he’s got groupies who flock around him after class and I never say anything to him. It made me feel good to be noticed and anyway, what he was saying was true. I couldn’t finish a whole class when I started and now I work hard doing all the moves. And BC really does provide an endorphin rush.

    My next thing is to step up the exercise and start going on the weekends as well like I used to. I got out of the habit and we lounge around watching football programmes. So that’s my goal.

    BTW there is a book called Stop the Insanity by Susan Poulter, which is quite close to being a ‘for god’s sake just move your ass’ book. It’s worth a look although she can get a bit preachy.

  17. I feel the same way about books. I’m looking more for the ones that don’t tell you want to eat and how to exercise, but how the mind can adjust to the changes you’ve made. If that makes sense, or books about why I overeat. Great result for the 2nd week back on track.

  18. I have written before – and just to let you know that I really relate to you (I too have lost gargantuan amounts of weight over a number of years, and still have a little to go) and agree with you about the book thing – but have you read ‘if not dieting then what?’ by rick kausman, an australian dietition. It is really sensible, and a lot of what he says really seems to mesh with what you write about. This is just a suggestion, and not an evangelical rant, but I have to say, it is the least bullshitty preachy and most ‘least eating disorder encouraging’ book that I have read. 🙂 Please don’t hit me.

  19. cheers for the comments folks!

    fi, i wouldn’t hit you! even though it would be good practice for body combat! hehe. i appreciate the book tip though!

  20. hey babe, forgot to say that i have mentioned you a little bit on my site, so feel free to drop in if you have time!



  21. Hi, DietGirl.

    Great site. I’ll be coming back frequently for inspiration. I “ran” (more like slogged, but hey, it’s a start) on the treadmill yesterday for the first time in my whole entire life. I’ve got 100+ pounds to lose and made the really crazy decision to let a local radio station follow my “journey.” Translation: weigh in each week in the studio, LIVE, and then slip in to utter and complete denial about all the people listening who now know how much I weigh!! Up until a month ago, only three people in the whole world knew. And, because I’m a glutton for punishement, I also committed to do a mini-triathlon in July. What the hell! I’ve just started my blog and will be including a link to your site. Keep up the great work!

  22. Yo, Girl-

    Where is today’s weigh in? Surely, you are not still in Valencia?

    Please tell us how it goes. Only 4 more weeks!!!
    Maybe you could be DietBride? (oh sorry, everybody is that).

  23. Check out a book called, YOU The Owner’s Manual by Michael F. Roizen, M.D. and Mehmet C. OZ, M.D. ISBN # 0-06-076531-3 It is pretty interesting and you learn a lot.

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